How do you get up from an all time low?

Answer its not easy and in another way it is.  I haven't got there yet but I feel I'm emerging.  I have been attending counselling and there are some surprising things that I learned about motherhood.
The first is that Post natal depression can last for up to 5 years.  However depression can manifest itself in different ways so if you don't recognise your symptoms it can go untreated.
The second thing is that I lost myself in the pressures of life.  So many women wrap themselves up in the identity of mother but in a misguided identity. I love my boys but at one time I thought that I should go without to make sure that they are ok.  That strategy may work  in the short term but it has devastating effects in the long term,  Yet I hear so many women say things like that.
Friday marked the day when I will look after myself.  I will be looking after myself so that I can see what is right for my family.  Looking after myself is trying to fit in swimming and another type of excercise 2 times a week. Getting my hair done and buying some clothes.